Annual Review at work

I had my annual review at 4:30 last night. I think it was intentionally timed to be the very last item of the week. My supervisor respects me. My boss-not so much.

So it started off with how absent I have been this year.  That is pretty common knowledge. Well, I guess I was up for a 4% raise but because of my absenteeism I don’t get it.  This is what was said:

Beth’s absenteeism has impacted her evaluation somewhat.  Her attendance has improved lately, and should it continue to improve, I would like to reevaluate her salary recommendation in 90 days.

So I get to do this again in 90 days and then they might give me my other 2%.  I understand all this but they made it sound like my absenteeism was my fault.  I’m going to continue to get crap because I had those surgeries.  I’m ready for them to be a distant memory.  It’s been three months since the last one.  It worked.  The doctor found the problem.  It’s fixed.  I’m good.  I’m at work.  I’m active.  I’m still getting crap about it.

Page 2 is my performance evaluation.  The first section was on job performance.  I got 32/40 points.  I got a 2 for quantity of work which dropped me a bunch.  The comments were

Beth was out of the office for a significant part of the year which impacted the volume of work she was able to do.  Beth did, however, leave detailed instructions, tickers, tasks and reminders so that others could complete front office duties in her absence.  Beth’s attention to detail and willingness to thoroughly document procedures was greatly appreciated.

Section 2 was personal perfomance which totally stunk.  I got a 2 on dependability and attendance & punctuality.  That killed me because I’m huge on those two things.  I just wanted to scream, “It wasn’t my fault!” On this I got 26/35. 

Beth has a positive attitude and works well independently or in a team environment.  When Beth is able to come to work, she is dependable and takes responsibility for her assigned duties.

The last section was personal improvement.  This wasn’t too shabby.  No score was less than a 3 and the only comment was

Beth is expected to continue to expand trust knowledge.

My average is a 76.44.  A C+!!  I never get C’s.  I wanted to vomit. 

Though they made such a big deal about my absenteeism is wasn’t listed an any of my developmental goals. My goals are:

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  • Focus on keeping filing current
  • continue to cross-train
  • continued expansion of trust tax function responsibilities

Not a thing about being present, dependable, accountable, anything.  It seemed to be my boss’ one last dig about being gone.  I told my girls that I think my boss is just jealous cuz I don’t have a uterus anymore

I’m done stewing about it even though I am still irritated.  At first I was so proud of how my supervisor stood up for me (my boss didn’t want to give me a raise at all).  Then I was just pissed at my boss because she is 55 and she can’t get over herself.  This is the same boss that got upset with me because I was happy that a coworker was getting a position at a top local company in a field she loved. 

If we don’t move I think I will look into a job closer to home and hopefully a boss a little less into herself.  Every woman boss I have ever had has had this issue.  It’s all about them.  Not about the company or employees.  Just them.